hit-or-miss

considering the fact that i have been hiding out at home lately a lot has happened *laugh face emoji*
pls know that my face is as pokerface as pokerface can get right now
it is seven in the morning and i was wondering if i needed to let anything out
(i'm waiting for an episode to load lol)
i know, so unhealthy, debating on whether i should go down and find food or just sit here and continue waiting

aha

damn it. it would take too long to fry the goddamned bacon!

it's March tho and i haven't done anything progressive at all! everyone's going back to school already.
you know i just realized how weird it is to not go to school. the purposelessness (lol is that a word) is deafening - its's blinding and crippling
i can feel my brain decelerating at an alarming rate

just finished the worst mistake of my life btw, i ter-make oat instead of nestum FML

I can't believe I'm turning 18 soon :O 17 was just as good if not better than being 16. i hope 18 will be grand as well (grand as in nice instagram feed and a lot of travelling) the thought of being alive by one more year is rejuvenating but discouraging at the same time :( i mean i know it means freedom but it also means more responsibilities ( I think real far, ( maybe i'm not 17 ba ( lol that orphan story where she murders everyone and isn't actually a child ha ha ha) ) way too far ) (sometimes i wonder if i'll ever be able to get a JOB and PAY BILLS and TAXES ) ( LOL WILL I EVER BUY A HOUSE? theyre so expensive ;( i can't even buy myself ice-cream sometimes what more  house and a car and all that other stuff )

actually kan. life is easy ba but then all these complications arise from these complicated sophisticated minds. LIKE SRSLY the standards we all have to live up to nowadays ha ha ha i can't even find the right words or place them correctly wow when did this turn into a whiny post AHAHA

lol questions to ask self ; why is age so important to me ? why do i like complicating things? why haven't i filled up those forms? WHY DO ALL THE NESTUM 3-IN-1 PACKETS LOOK THE SAME?

i hope in the future i learn how to write cleaner posts hehe