nothing pt1

Today started off pretty bad. I was mean to someone who loves me very much. I said sorry afterwards but I know sorry is just another word, I can't show that I am sorry I can't do much by saying sorry. What a useless word sorry is. I wish I knew other ways to tell a person that I didn't mean to do it. Why is it that we only realize our mistakes after we have done them? Why is it so difficult to see wrong from right. I have been complaining about this since day 1, I don't know when I will have better self control so I don't keep messing up and spilling mistakes here and there and everywhere. 

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Just now I helped Eman with his geography project and I messed up a lot of stuff. Every time I did something wrong I just got rid of the mistake and made a new one. Starting over is always the cleaner way to go, not gonna try and patch up the mistake. Of course this can't apply to everything but for most things it might. haih rambling again. okay end of this post ; i don't wanna play someone's game.