Bad Texter

I don't know why but opening whatsapp is such a chore for me. But this neglect towards all my unopened messages is becoming so rude to everyone I know. Today I opened Facebook and I saw my cousin tag me in a post saying "when your bestfriend text's you and then doesn't reply for 3 months" or something like that and I really felt that she didn't deserve that treatment. I mean, yeah opening whatsapp is draining but how do I overcome this? I know that most of the people I know aren't offended that I sometimes just never open their messages but I do feel bad, and I feel like it's too much already. I mean, clearly we don't know when the last conversation will be with the other person. We don't know these things and I would feel terrible if the last thing you said to me I didn't even respond to it???? It would be 1000% my fault and I understand this is something I have to change. However, I also think that it's not so simple to be a better texter overnight? Because I think I haven't given myself enough time to be alone and to not have ANY WORK. I really feel that 90% of my whatsapp that makes me tired of being on whatsapp is work related messages (or before this, school related/extra curriculars/outside uni engagements) I think I try to involve myself in too many responsibilities. I just didn't realize that my brain and body cannot take it sudah. I just keep trying to find work for myself, when I should stop. Like I really should just stop for awhile. I'm beginning to understand why some people want to go and live in the mountains for a few years, it's because there is no way they will stop if surrounded by opportunities to do work because maybe they're addicted to being busy. Hopefully I don't reach that stage. Haih. ok la that's all.