2025 so far

I can't believe we have reached this part of 2025 at such lightning speed. This year has been so challenging and I feel like I've had to deal with so many emotions? Probably the most emotions I have felt since I was 13? Is this age like another go at 13? 

Entering September always gives me a little bit of anxiety, because it seems like another year is ending, and my birthday is coming in another 6 months. What have I done to make anything in this world better? Or what have I done to improve myself? Life audits are never fun. Sitting down with myself and writing everything down month for month, day for day is not fun. So I am probably going to put off my life audit for now. It's just too much. 

This year feels more real than any year in my life. Why does everything feel so real? Every year probably feels more real than the last. 

However, I am hopeful for the future. Even if everything seems like it's falling apart I know that it has been designed and planned in the best way possible for everyone involved.