An October Post.

Attempt 1 at documenting

The first 4 days of October, I went home. My dad made me soup, my mom made me soup, micah hugged me and Andai picked me up at the airport. Emman made me laugh. Isaiah and his friend played guitars. And then I left. My homecoming was brief. In the departure hall I realized, that I was going to be so far away again. I called my mom while I was in the plane. It wasn’t enough.

Then I made it all the way back to dorm by myself with cheap public transport bcs I also realized that money ran too fast from me. I had lunch with a friend too, Belle. I could’ve eaten alone. But some people you need to remember them, and how they have made you better. I am trying to make more time for people who are good to me for no reason at all except for the fact that they are just… essentially … good people.

That first week of October, I threw up at the side of the street. I was sick. Chelle walked me home. Chelle walked me all the way to the third floor. Capt saw me puking and he didn’t turn a blind eye, he went up to me and made me take his minyak angin lol. He even offered to take me to the hospital. But I knew I didn’t need the hospital. Either that, or I didn’t want to burden him. Either that or I was too proud. Or maybe I really did feel I would get better myself. Idk. Ain bought me 100plus. A whole bottle. Not even in the can. Van and Mer stayed at my bedside for god knows how long. They didn’t leave and they bought me fruits too. Never thought I’d get sick over lasagna. But I guess that happens

I changed the color of my bands. Pastel pink for the whole of October. Should’ve tried orange to feel more festive but my dentist said I never tried the lighter pinks so he chose that for me. Its always a good weekend when I go to the dentist because Aunty Jaja always takes me out to eat and Sri Petaling has a new restaurant/cafe opening every other day. Brunch with Aunty Jaja is always exciting. Luke is now two. And he can say many letters. He knows his animals too. And he can say “hi!”.

I saw my Prime Minister give a speech the following Friday. Didn’t really pay attention to the content of his speech, I was too busy watching his body language. He’s really good at emphasising using bodily movement. I guess thats something to admire about him :/

Mer’s dog died. Thats probably why my contract presentation went wrong. That and lack of communication. I got into some awkward group instances. I guess some people are hard to work with. Or maybe it’s me? But I’ve never been awkward in groups. Is it me? Is it them? I wrote in distress on my tumblr. But the feeling has subsided now.

I learned how to say “I don’t know” in French its “je ne sais pas”. I hope I spelled that correctly. I’m too lazy to google. Even more so to open my textbook.

I went out a lot. With Mer. And with classmates. And we accompanied Van do her grocery shopping. We spent almost an hour in Guardian just looking at everything individually. Guardian has so many gems. My money is running away from me as I type this.

I call my parents more often now. I don’t wait for them to call me anymore. I don’t go weeks without texting them. I even called my grandma once this month. Its nice talking to family. Along with this came the praying. It is important to be thankful. I’m trying to always remind myself that what I have now is enough. Trying not to want more than need.

I have a few more days left in October. I wish I took more pictures. Thats all.