No music at 5AM. I just feel like shit.

maybe i should just enjoy the ride without trying to be a part of it. honestly all i feel here is as if i am making background noise. i leave no impact at all on anything. if this is what it will feel like in the real world then it would be the saddest thing for my efforts and contributions would be nothing but a waste. I don't know why I am so sad tho. Is it because I feel insignificant? Do i feel like a waste of space? Will I rot here? Was this a mistake?